반사 (Reflection)

Screaming is good.

It’s no different than sprinting-hitting a punching bag or slamming ones closed fist into a wall.

All much better then curling up in bed and throwing a blanket over one’s head. A big part of being reflective; especially during a time of high stress is to not resort to behaviors that will lead down a rabbit hole of depression.

Today was one of those days.

After a good long guttural scream, I fantasized about curling up into a ball, as much as a nine month pregnant belly would allow, and sleeping the day away.

The gray sky and rain supported this kind of day. However, as a person that’s spent many a day in bed buried under sheets or staring at a blank wall sleeping all day was not the right choice for me.

Instead-I went to the movies. Parasite just swept the Oscars and I must admit I’ve never heard of this film until it won. I’m not going to share anything about this film-except to note it’s quite exceptional and I can see why it won more than one Oscar. I’ll say this much-although set in South Korea with subtitles; like all good story telling the major themes in this film was easily relatable. If you haven’t seen it-make a point to watch.

I know I’ve come across many memes and sayings over the years that basically state: “Happiness is a choice”. I truly believe this to be true. And although things may happen in life to make us angry, overwhelmed, sad and even just plain downtrodden-it’s important to not allow feelings of helplessness to consume you.

Today was a reminder for me to always be reflective-and mindful of how I feel and to always recognize my choice in feeding into a downward spiral of sadness or to face tribulations head on and focus on things within my control. Thankfully, I’m fully aware of what breathes life back into my being.

ART.

Whether it’s an award winning film or stopping at a local art museum, where I’m currently stationed, remember to always do what you love. Reflection is key to continually push forward. Feel free to share how you cope with feelings overwhelmingness or simply just sadness. I eagerly await your thoughts. Blessings.

3 thoughts on “반사 (Reflection)

  1. Life is very precious, so it’s up to us, to keep ourselves HAPPY. Although, we may hit curves, bends or just run out of road in LIFE, pressing on is pertinent. I tend to find my balance to life’s chaos, through an intense workout, nature, a good comedy, shopping, traveling, etc. The simple fact alone, that you are a mom, solidifies that need to press on. As we become parents, we are no longer living for ourselves. I applaud your approach to life’s struggles. Your story speaks to me, and encourages me tremendously in my own life.

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